It's been a long while since that last time , that old and beautiful time .
Special are the moments when i take my pen and my favorite few papers for a trip . Now i have to check the battery of the laptop first but still run to my tiny corner .
I left it for a good reason , i have been searching for the last year for answers to questions that comes out of no where , sounds that brings happiness and joy and words that reminds you of the unknown journey that we have to finish , i was too busy looking for something that might never exist .
In between i had to go to collegue , where i lost all my talent a started to b the no one they need to have ...
I strongly believe that school is professional in making us stupid , systematic :)
Why would you go to school and spend more than 20 years looking for that piece of paper saying that you have the needed qualification to be a Manager , a doctor , an engeneer , a teacher . Why would you listen to them ?
If they were smart enough they would never loose years & years in the classroom & let the real life escape from them .
Questions !!! what for ! Is it what it looks like ? & even you had your answers , is it going to change anything !! "what kind of power would you have you little tiny weak girl ", that was. a famous sentence for one of my teachers
The world is not an easy place where you can do what ever you want whenever you want !! every thing has it's rules & most of all it 's time .
You better discover the pain before the sweets . You can't force your own self ?! not any more to do something you dont want to do it ? !! Then learn how to do it , learn how to force your self , torture yourself , ignore your self and then you ll master your own will and you ll be able to live the kind of life that you deserve .
It's simple and easy as it sounds , you just have to repete it every single day , early morning , you can also try the mirror ( it have some real amazing effects) : " It's a new day , it's a new Chance "
But , in between i still have a final question :
If he want to bring us to life , he shall ask us first , isn't ? Why didn't he , i dont remeber someone asked before coming to this world , if i would like to be here or not !! From moment one ,i am forced !
Life is only an obligation for some of us , joyfull experience for others & a huge chance for few but for the rest is it an obligation ?
Still didnt find the answer , did you ?
